i’m sad without you.
it’s a deep sadness –
it seeps through the tissues
down to the bone.
they fray and flake around the edges
like tired pieces of soap.
my once-strong heart is
eroded, porous, atrophied.
a sad, overused sponge
i tried to wring you out of me.
it’s a constant sadness –
it’s there in the morning to greet me
before i’ve opened my eyes.
it’s put lead weights under my skin,
sapped the strength from my limbs,
changed me entirely.
i’m amorphous, gelatinous, a
mound of a monster
capable of only rudimentary thought:
rebekah. rebekah’s gone forever.
you follow me like a ghost.
you’re always with me.
or am i the ghost following you?